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Friday, 12 February 2010

Sometimes I wish

Sometimes I wish I were defense LESS

I am so .......... what am I ?

My friend has a blog in which she bares ALL

Part of me is like, 'wow that takes guts'.
The other part (the cynical one) thinks 'wow no wonder you get hurt easy'.

I wish my cynical side wasn't there, it's pretty mean, it's the side that doesn't know how to react when someone is upset, it's the selfish side that has no time for moaners.

But at the same time that cynical side is a rather wonderful defense mechanism.

'don't cry over spilt milk'
'if you can't say something nice don't say anything at all'
AKA
Don't show emotion
Don't let anyone really know what you think

See if I don't show people that I am hurt, then they don't know how to hurt me
and if I'm always nice then no one is gonna want to hurt me
Right?

So what am I, well I'm on autopilot with the shield armed and ready


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